The Darkroom Of Love
I am Ahonu. I had a realization about love. We all like to think that love is here on Earth. We believe it’s in this incarnation, in our bodies, in our lives, in our families on Earth that we experience love. But my realization was that we do not know what love is at all. We simply have not got a clue.
We’re grasping at straws when we think we know what love is. Because, if you could even just conceptualize for a moment what the love of God must be like, what eternal love must be like, and compare it to what we experience as love here. They are as different as chalk and cheese, or one may just be the smallest aspect of it. Because if we knew what eternal love was, or the love of God was like in its eternalness, in its omnipotence, we would know what perfection is. And I think it’s fair to say that in this incarnation, we don’t know what perfection is, otherwise we wouldn’t be here.
My realization went further, uncovering 36 colors of all the aspects of ourselves. It’s like each aspect of us has a piece of the puzzle. Our purpose is the reunification of ourselves back to God and therefore back to love. If we only know what one thirty-sixth of love is like, that’s what we’re experiencing here. It is just an aspect of love, which is beautiful — it’s wonderful when we feel love. It’s enlightening, it’s heartening, it’s wonderful, it’s gorgeous. We want to hold on to it. But it’s like a will-o’-the-wisp, it’s hard to hold on to it because sorrow comes in, death comes in, sadness comes in. But when we reunify ourselves with the other aspects of us, then we feel more love, more strongly. The unification of spiritual twin flames is stronger, but also has its own difficulties. Merging of the twins doubles its potential., but that’s its own subject.
In seeing the rainbow, you see seven colors here on Earth. That has to do with knowing an aspect of God, the totality. It is an aspect of us knowing that all these levels exist, and we recognize an aspect of it here. It’s the thread that connects us. We know that God exists, let’s say, but can we embody it? Can we feel it in its totality? If love is related to a color, and there are 36 colors, in that way it’s likely there are 36 aspects of love, or 36 realizations of love, or 36 levels of love, but we can only see one level of it, one aspect of it now, in this incarnation. When we talk about the color red being on Earth and seeing red when you’re developing prints (in the old days of developing pictures in a darkroom) — you turn on the red light in the laboratory, in the developer’s room, in the darkroom, they called it, to see the negative turn into the positive print. In the same way, there’s an aspect of love that can only be seen with the red color on Earth, and that’s the level of love that we’re seeing here.
When you go into a darkroom and put on that red light, you see yourself better; you see what you’re composed of, but you can see it’s negative. You see the negative in the darkroom when you’re making these pictures; you see what you’re made of. And in the physical world, red is the color of creation.
So, it’s not that you’re not composed of all the colors. Everybody is composed of God, but it’s a tiny sliver, a taste. You can have a taste in your mouth, but it’s not the real thing, or you can have an image in your mind, but it’s not the real thing, or you can have an idea in your head, but it’s not the real thing. In the same way, these are some of the colors of the totality of the 36 of God, of eternal life. But it’s not the real thing. We don’t realize it. It’s here, but it’s just wisps of it.
When you fall in love, for example, you get a sense of what the greater love feels like, the joy and the exhilaration and the exuberance and the wonder of it all. But can you hold on to it? Can you keep it? Can you embody it all the time? It’s difficult, for most people anyway. So, in that way, sure, we have all the colors here, but they’re just ideas, they’re hard to enjoy in their wholeness. So, in our purpose of reunifying all these 36 aspects of ourselves, it’s likely we can achieve it through the colors.
White light would contain them all, but we’d have to identify what the 36 colors are. Let’s use the analogy of the darkroom again (it’s interesting it’s called the darkroom!). The red identifies the physical and the negativity on Earth. But, let’s say if we went into the orange, which would be another darkroom, we’d find an aspect of ourselves in there. Then, we can equate it to a chakra and find what that chakra is doing in the body. Is it about creation, procreation? Is it about an expansion out of the red, out of physicality?
And when we explore all the chakras and their colors, we’d find an identity of ourselves that wants to stay there, too. It’s like the child playing in the playground, it doesn’t want to come home because it’s having its own fun, it’s living its own reality, its own realizations. The more we join these colors together, (like red and yellow is stronger than just red on its own), we become stronger in terms of our light quotient, stronger in terms of our realizations, because we’re merging realities into unity. And then, there all those sound tone frequencies, too, to merge into unity!
This is where working with the chakras is a wonderful thing to do, because it’s the beginning of the merging of all these aspects of ourselves who don’t want to come home because of their own ego identities. But when they feel and see the merging, and feel and see and experience that initial unification of just those first few, then the momentum builds to unify the rest, and I venture to say that happens after 12 of them are unified.
So, out of the 36, it would seem there are three phases, a 12, 24 and a 36-phase. The 36 obviously being unification with God, the complete and total eternal experience of joy and pure love. But the 12 is significant as being the first level; twelve is the number of full lunations in a solar year, and the number of years for a full cycle of Jupiter (the brightest of the ancient “wandering stars”), hence the number of months in a solar calendar, and the number of signs in the Western and the Chinese zodiac. It’s where we get the 12 apostles. The 12 Olympians are the principal gods of the Pantheon who were preceded by 12 Titans. Hercules carries out 12 labours. In ancient Rome, the 12 lictors carried fasces of 12 rods. Ishmael — the first-born son of Abraham — has 12 sons, and Jacob also has 12 sons, who are the progenitors of the 12 Tribes of Israel. The Virgin Mary wears a crown of 12 stars. There are 12 days of Christmas, and 12 months in a year. The Chinese use a 12-year cycle for time-reckoning. There are 12 hours in a half day, numbered 1 to 12 for both the ante meridiem (a.m.) and the post meridiem (p.m.). 12:00 p.m. is midday or noon, and 12:00 a.m. is midnight. The basic units of time (60 seconds, 60 minutes, 24 hours) are evenly divisible by 12 into smaller units. Force 12 on the Beaufort wind force scale corresponds to the maximum wind speed of a hurricane. The human body has 12 Thoracic vertebrae.
The list goes on, showing the 12s as an earthly phase-locked state that begs progression if we dare! That’s where the momentum starts. That’s where a proper move towards unification begins and then the work to unify the 13th and 14th begins, until we arrive at the 24th where another surge of spiritual progression occurs. Another glorious feeling of the unification to God consciousness happens when this merging happens. As it progresses, it’s becomes inevitable that the desire of each aspect of the self is gathering propulsion towards home. The journey is like the prodigal son coming home — prepare the way, because the urge is, “I’m coming home”.
It’s a beautiful thing, it’s a joyful thing, but remember — this is not death! It is actually life itself, not death. This is not a case of, “Oh, I’m going to lose my body because each aspect of myself in each of these places is giving up its belief in its own ego!” No, all that’s happening is it’s coming home to unity, and the fear of death is being removed from each of these aspects of itself. This is overcoming death, and this is overcoming reincarnation. Reincarnation is only that desire to stay in a body and come back in a body and come back into the experiences of the red 3D life, which is only a tiny aspect of the whole. So, our purpose is to experience each of the 36 chakras now. 36 chakras — there must be, because if each resonates with a color, and there are 36 colors, it would make sense that we must journey through 36 chakras, we must journey through 36 colors, we must journey through 36 aspects of ourselves to arrive at unity.
When I say journey, I don’t mean work. Journey to us as humans, or in the English language, insinuates an effort. I can see how that would be, because we have segmented or fragmented these aspects because we don’t want to do this. We like playing in the playground, we don’t want to go home. We’re enjoying the individuation, while the journey (!) home appears to be an effort. It comes back to what Aingeal Rose said about it being a choice; “All choice impacts everything, including the past, the present and the future!”
Do you want to make this choice?
Does each aspect of these children of us, want to make this effort, or do we want to stay as we are and keep playing in the outer fringes of fragmentation? Ask each aspect of yourself if it want to make this choice. It’s only when all 36 aspects of ourselves have made this choice to say, yes, I want to go home to God, that reunification will take place and we will experience the total joy of God’s love.